Never get too busy or distracted that you don’t include God in your schedule. He is never to busy or distracted to include you in His schedule.
(Psalm 78:7-8) 7 That they may set their hope in God,
And not forget the works of God,
But keep His commandments;
8 And may not be like their fathers,
A stubborn and rebellious generation,
A generation that did not set its heart aright,
And whose spirit was not faithful to God.
(John 15:5) 5 “I am the vine, you are the branches. He who abides in Me, and I in him, bears much fruit; for without Me you can do nothing.
This morning I was thinking to myself that I love too hard. I thought about my dear friend and how a few days ago I thought about him and my heart was so warm and elated of the thought of him and how much I miss him. To believe that its been about 2 and half years since I first fell for him and I still feel the same way I did when I first realized that I loved him. Its funny in a sense because when I really like or want something, I hang on and don’t let go. After all this time I’m still holding on. I still love and care about my friend with all my heart and soul. I also thought about a past love and thought about how I loved and cared about him, but I realized back then my love for him would change a lot. If he did anything that I felt was hurtful, my feelings would change really quickly, yet I still hung onto to him until I couldn’t anymore. My hanging on to what I like and want is what made me think that I love too hard, but can you really love too hard? I mean God loves us no matter what we do always and forever. Really God is love and God is an unchanging God. He is the same, yesterday, today, and forever (Hebrews 13:8). The world has a very skewed view of love and we try to love by the standards of worldy love. Lol when I first realized that I love my friend it was really early on when he I started hanging out with each other. I didn’t want myself to fall for him nor love him because I knew myself (I love too hard), but the more time we spent with each the more my heart was filled with love for him and enjoying every second that we spent getting to know each other. (It was like I had a glimpse of heaven, I feel so corny saying that, but wow! ❤ That’s how I felt.) What I have come to realize about love (true and Holy) is that its unchanging and whats upon my heart and soul is real so I can NEVER love too hard.
(John 13:34) 34 A new commandment I give to you, that you love one another; as I have loved you, that you also love one another.
I want to get closer to that light that is peeking at me in all this darkness. I want that light to brighten this place. I need to see where I’m going, but I can’t because I keep stumbling in the dark. I keep feeling things in the dark that I don’t want to feel. I’ve ran into too many walls, ran into images I can’t see and had to wrestle of few of them off, I’ve fallen into holes and struggled to get out. A few times I thought I was being buried alive. I’ve walked into too many cobwebs and and spent hours removing the webbing off of me. For everything that has happen in this darkness that light peeks at me has allows appeared on me when in trouble. When I ran into a wall the Light directed me away from it, when I ran into images the Light scared the image away, when I’ve fallen into a hole the Light showed me where and how to climb out, and when I was covered in cobweb the Light melted the webbing away. The Light that peeks at me has done so much for me and opened my eyes to this darkness. I’m sick and tired of all this darkness and its all around me. I can’t stand the sounds of the darkness, the petty chatter that goes on about nonsense and complaints of the Light presence. I can’t stand the feeling of the darkness, it makes me feel sick, crazy, and uncomfortable. I’ve dealt with it far too long. I can’t stand the smell of the darkness, my nostrils are always tingling and I sneeze. I can’t stand the taste of the rancid darkness. My tongue burns and vomit every time I have a bite. I can’t stand the sight of the darkness in the way that I can’t see anything, but what the Light has shown me. The Light has opened my eyes and I want to get closer to it. I walk, climb, and stumble my way to the Light through the darkness. Ever inch I make closer to the Light it comes so much brighter and clearer to see. I don’t have to stay in this darkness not matter how much the darkness wants me to sit in fear as it taunts me. The Light is the only happiness I’ve experienced and the more closer I get to it the more I can stand up with my head held high. I’m sick of this darkness! Oh Light that shines so brightly at me come rescue me from these shadows that pins me down. I want to be where You are oh dear, Light! I want to be strong like You and scare off images, I want to be warm like You and melt cobwebs, I want to shine like You and change the course of direction and help others to climb out of holes. Oh Light that peekss at me and has helped every step of the way, what is it like where You are? Are there images, cobwebs, and holes where You are? Why would I ask that? I know they are not. You have defended me from all of these things in the darkness. Oh Light that shines so bright I reach my hand to You. Pull me up to where You are. The things in the darkness know that i’m going to You and they are trying to turn me around and pin me down again. Light that illuminates the darkness around me I call to You brighten this place and rid of all the darkenss and the things to walk among it. Come and move into this place oh Light make it Your 2nd home. Add this place and connect it to Your home of where You are oh dear Light. Shine! Illuminate! Glisten! Oh dear Light, I scream in praise and celebration! Come and be with me and shine forever more!
(John 8:12) 12 Then Jesus spoke to them again, saying, “I am the light of the world. He who follows Me shall not walk in darkness, but have the light of life.”